The nights were quiet, with barely any silhouettes walking outside the village. I walked out my kitchen and it was empty as well. The usually wild and lively students have put on their serious faces to study for their upcoming exams, except for me, technically, the architecture students!
Upon returning to the UK, most students had to undergo their first series of examinations of the year. Architecture students, however, had to finish up their assignments and submit them by the set deadlines throughout the general examination period. Not to mention, the review day where all architecture students will attend a personal session with the tutor where constructive feedback is given. It was rather awkward to the sudden quietness in the village, though it only meant that I could be more focused in completing my assignments. Social events were mostly cut down as well. Furthermore, the university had considerately kept their public libraries opened for a longer period of time to allow students to study. Perhaps this was another why I like the architecture course. Students are evaluated throughout the year based on practical design projects as well as occasional assignments. It seems much fairer than students graded in other courses who would be evaluated primarily based on their exams, in which they only have just one shot to impress.
With that said, I personally felt like I was struggling in my course as things were all very new to me. I am definitely interested, but it seemed as if many other students already know so much more than I do. It was as if they were born knowing that architecture is their future. Mine, on the other hand, was a rather recent passion.
Saying so, it was extremely intimidating to constantly work with them. I usually know what I am doing, always at the top of my game, but at this stage, I felt like the underdog, barely scraping through projects and assignments. I comforted myself, thinking that there are bound to be people better than me and that this only meant more to learn and more effort to be put in.
Distractions put aside and dubieties ignored, I just tried to learn as much as possible and executed in my projects using my instincts and as much research and feedback I could possibly get hold of. I was still unsure of my own performance as the comments we get from our tutors were rather general and seldom personal. It really helped that I am actually interested in architecture. Every single day felt like a learning experience and I tried my very best to absorb like a sponge. Without much realisation, it was already the day where we had to attend our personal review session. I waited there patiently and silently. Deep inside, I was extremely nervous. People were coming out with B’s and C’s, some occasional A-’s. Senior students were commenting on how we should already be thankful if we could land B’s. Seeing how they were rather competent students, I had no idea how I would fair. At that point of time, I was just hoping to see improvements in my grades.
The door opened and it was my turn. I clumsily entered the room, holding my new giant-sized portfolio and my models as the tutors offered to lend me a hand. They asked me how I felt about my time in the course and I just decided to be really honest, telling them that I felt very intimidated. They shot me a startled look and I just was dumbfounded. Apparently, they explained that I always looked confident and seem to always know what to do. I thought to myself how great an actor I was! Anyways, I took this opportunity of a lifetime to clear out all my doubts, asking the tutors my specific strengths and weaknesses, also advices on how and what I can do in future projects.
By the end of the session, they handed me my result slip. I looked at it, looked back at them and they were smiling. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. Gradual improvements as I had hoped for and A’s!
Immediately, I thanked them, extremely grateful for their evaluation and thanked God to have answered my prayers. They have assured me that I was doing the right thing in the past semester and that hard work really does pay off.
It was the push that I needed to continue these remaining two and a half years that I have, knowing that nothing is really impossible if I put in enough effort.
I shall continue working hard and hopefully graduate as a confident architect. I have found my path and I am now sure it is the right one.
2011 seems to be looking good and I am excited to embrace what is in store for me.
David studied Engineering Foundation at Bellerbys College, a university preparation college for international students











